So before I head to my workout, I want to do a quick shout out to I heard Herb for sponsoring this video. This year I really want to step it up and that means adding creatine. I have always associated creatine with like bodybuilders swollen muscles. Like I don't know. I just really didn't think that it was suited for me. But there's more and more data that's coming out that creatine is actually amazing for everyone to use. So I grabbed the California Gold Nutrition Sport Creatine from IH Herb. If you've never used iHeart before, they have tens of thousands of authentic wellness brands from supplements, beauty, baby stuff, sports nutrition, you name it.

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my creatine journey, I will leave a link in the description box. Also, thanks again to IH Herb for sponsoring this portion of the video. Now, let's head to the gym. Wow. This is my first time ever making a sandwich like this, but I think I might be on to something. Maybe I'm getting ahead of myself. I don't even know what it tastes like. But just look at it, guys. What a perfect sandwich. And it's all made from leftovers from my fridge. Just random bits and bobs. This is like a clear route sandwich. Enough talking. Let's Let's bite into this sandwich.

Wo, that's crazy. It tastes like a shakureri board but in a sandwich form. What the heck should I call this like my shakureri sandwich? M. You know what would make this sandwich even better? Peppercinis. Yeah, I said it. I have them in the fridge, but honestly, my tummy has not been in the best place. I'm still like monitoring the situation, but it was definitely something I ate. But the problem was there was just so much food. I could not pinpoint what it was. Either way, I'm like kind of watching what I eat. Even though this is a pretty like adventurous sandwich, but yeah, but it's not spicy. I think spice is probably

my biggest trigger, which is honestly a shame. It's a goddamn shame. That was so good. Last year, I filled out three notebooks. These are all entries. These are all little snapshots of my brain at the time. On New Year's Eve, I thought it would be a good idea to read each entry. This is taking quite a bit of time. Like I wanted to do like a 2025 end of year reflection, but like the neurotic side of my brain is like, you can't do the reflection until you read everything that happened last year. I am really enjoying reading back these

entries because it truly feels like I'm time traveling. So, I just feel like I'm connecting the dots of like how I've come to be this version of me right now. I still have to get through my October, November, December entries. I actually feel quite optimistic about 2026. I hesitate to say anything more because I don't want to jinx anything, but it is the year of the horse and I am a horse. still thinking about my resolutions, but for sure one of my resolutions for 2026 is to continue stretching more. Like I want to be more attuned with my body. That means being able to stretch. That means being able to have some better hand eye coordination,

dancing, I don't know, just uh I want to be able to really wire my mind to my body more directly, if that makes sense. Three, two, one. Ah, I've been really enjoying this ritual once I put Letin down because I actually find that I'm sleeping so much deeper. Who would have thought? Huh? It's just It's so funny. We do the most like common sense things for our bodies and when it actually works, we're like, "Oh my god, I never would have thought." But unfortunately, I'm not making much progress in the splits department. Like look at this. Can we do a side by side? But then um after reading a bunch of your amazing comments, it turns out that this is actually kind of an impractical goal.

Like even the most flexible people can't do the splits like this. So this is my new adjusted goal. It's to be able to do this the side splits. Like honestly, this is only day 12 of stretching. Imagine how far down I'll be by even the end of February. This is going to be like a year-long thing, but I am committed. Do you want to play one monster? I'm going to eat it. You're going to wait for me. Can I scoop it? And you put it right here.

Okay. Now, this is super hot water. Really good. Put some milk. What that would look like? Want to see? Yeah. Go. Can I have some? Oh, no. Bubba, you can have it when you're older. Okay. When? Maybe when you're 11. 26. Yeah, definitely. 86. Yeah. 100. Yeah. 20,000. Maybe if you're still alive. This is a pile of things that I got at the Rosebull Flea Market. The Rosebull Flea Market happens every second Sunday of the month, so it's super easy to miss. That's why I've missed every Roseb

for the past five, six years. But something happened in January where we were like, we're going to go. Anyway, I thought I would show you guys these treasures that I found before I put them away in my closet. This is visual clutter. Let me just clean this up. Now, we've got a set. Perfect. Now, the haul can begin. I do have quite a number of leather jackets, but not one that is collarless like this. It's really in impeccable condition. I feel like this is just going to be a very beautiful evening jacket. Like imagine me wearing this with a dress. The next piece I have is this repurposed Ferrari, I guess, like Formula 1 jacket. This cream blazer was just calling my name. I don't know. I think I just want to dress

a little bit more smart. You know, if I go to parent conference meeting, like, do I really want to be wearing a Bante? Like, I know I could, but what if I just rolled through like this? I also found this matching red Chloe set for $80. That's $40 a pop for Chloe, for vintage Chloe. When I put this on, I discovered that this skirt is actually pants. I have no idea in what scenario I would wear this to. It's too conservative and modest for a night out, but it's also too formal for the middle of the day. So, I don't know. Can you guys give me an event or like a just like a scenario where I would wear this where this would be appropriate? I've been looking for a hat like this. And boom. $25. I feel

like a Wes Anderson character. Final piece is this ring. It almost looks like a vertebrae spine. Very chrome hearts coated. Wait, there is one last item. It's these cream lace up Victorian style boots. And in my size, like you got to be kidding me. I have to wear socks with this. These are genuine leather made in Italy. How cool are these boots? Again, not with this outfit. The only issue with these shoes is I do need to get them resold because they are burned to the ground. I've definitely made it a resolution to go to the flea market as often as I can. You

do get one of a kind pieces and you have to work for it harder because you're not [snorts] reverse image searching like certain pieces. I think my taste is still informed by my own personal algorithm, but I feel like when I'm applying it and I'm shopping in real life, that's when I know like what's actually really sticking to my subconscious. So, I guess there's something about this hat that I really wanted. Good day. I'm going to try and take creatine for a whole week and see how I feel. Yesterday was kind of funny though because as I was driving I felt like my body buzzing.

I think it was all psychosmatic though. I think it's because I was taking a new supplement I felt like oh my gosh is something actually happening. I don't think it did. I think it's early days. All right. So now that I took my creatine I feel like now I have to work out. Let's go. Workout is complete. Let's get these resold. Hi, how are you? Good. How are you? I'm good. I am just here to resold these boots. Oh my gosh, we're doing it.

We also have to hide the cups. Okay, you ready? Yeah. Okay. This is an item that is very sentimental to me. This is an item that I do not know how to style. I think this was made for a taller person. Like, you will have to pry this out of my cold, dead hands. One of my New Year's resolutions this year is to shop less. I'm not saying not shop at all because that's not a realistic goal, but I want to be more mindful about it for sure. So, I thought it'd be really fun if I did closet swaps with my friends. Honestly, humans are pretty simple creatures. We like new and shiny things, but then it wears off. And even though we know that intellectually, we still can't help ourselves. Borrowing kind of scratches that itch, but without

having to buy more. So, let's say items could get haunted. What if items can be lucky? Like the more good memories that are embedded into inanimate objects, like what if that gives you luck, right? Like as above so below. If something can be haunted, maybe something can be lucky. And anyway, I like the idea of having just like new great memories embedded into my clothing. I'm going to give this to Fran later today. But now I got to get ready to go golfing. This morning I am Really? Hello to the vlog. Jen's going crazy on the greens. My name is Christina Choy and this is my first time golfing.

Whoa. [screaming] Ooh, nice. Just a glove. No gloves. No golf balls. Just gloves. Yeah, right. But you brought snacks. What a beautiful day. I feel like I blinked and today was over and now it's 9:00 and now I have to take my makeup off. An activity that I want to bring into 2026 is I want to do more activities that are in the daytime with my friends. Because as much as I love a night out, I think the activities that we do in the day are much more memorable. And it's it's honest because we're all sober.

I would also like to improve my golf skills because those clubs that I have with me, the only reason why I have them is because these are my mom's old clubs. She hasn't touched those clubs in what, like 10 years, 20 years. I asked my mom if I can borrow her clubs and my dad got so excited he went out and regripped all those clubs and he even got me a glove. It would be my dream to continue to practice golf and get to a point where I'll be able to play golf with my dad. What a meaningful way to spend quality time with my dad. Like my dad golfs like it's his religion. He is golfing minimum twice a week. So, I feel

like this would be a great way for us to connect. We're just going to stretch and then go to sleep. Get an early night. I don't know if I completely ruined this recipe by adding zucchini in. I think I'm in this mission where I'm just trying my best to hide vegetables in anything. Good news, everybody. I am finally in December with my journal entries. I know it is truly been a journey. noticed that my happiest moments of last year weren't the trips or the nights out. It was honestly when I was completely locked into my routine. Not in like a rigid forced like self-punishing way, but just like the small joys that happen when you're just like balanced cuz like as much as I do love traveling and experiencing new

things, it's a lot for my nervous system to take. For example, when I went to Korea with my parents, it was phenomenal. But I think like the first leg of the trip, I felt so guilty and overstimulated being away from Lenin. Like it almost felt like I was like breaking a rule. But once I got to the second and third leg of the trip, I was like completely fine. I was like, "Woo, it was awesome." Me and my mom went on so many walks last year and we basically both like took turns being each other's therapists. These are truly going to be the memories that I look back on when I'm older and be like, damn, I was really living the life then. And a lot of times it's it's hard to see that you

are actively living in your golden era. Note to self, I think taking pleasure in the simple things is what really makes me happy. Okay, let's check on those muffins. They didn't rise as much as I thought they would, but it's probably because the zucchini is holding them down. Ooh. Okay. Very, very moist. But how do they taste? Here's the verdict. Holy cow. It worked, guys. It's actually good. M. You don't even taste the zucchini. If anything, you just taste more of the citrus, the zest, and the maple syrup adds the perfect amount of sweetness. Okay, these muffins are going

to bang off. My next experiment is going to be having two zucchinis inside these muffins. It's kind of impossible just to eat one muffin. I can't stop. I'm like that person that makes a recipe and is in complete awe of what they make. I'm always gassed for my own food. Can't tell me nothing. I'm about to head to the gym right now. But of course, I cannot forget my creatine. This is day four. Bottoms up.

Creatine's in. Let's head to the gym. I'm pray. So, I ordered the keranchim and then they actually gave me a bunch of panchchan. I'm so excited. Wow, that is hot but delicious. This is my favorite panchchangan katakugi which is radish kimchi. Very, very crunchy. This is exactly what I wanted to eat. I wish you could feel how soft my skin is everywhere. I feel good knowing that there is not a single skin cell from 2.5 on my body. I've got an update for you. We all have the flu. It's not something I was expecting at all. It's been 48 hours of this. It hit Lennin really hard. I've heard that this year's flu strain is particularly persistent and aggressive.

So, I'm kind of scared. You know what this feels like? It feels like an earthquake just happened and I'm just waiting for the tsunami to hit. I don't know how big it's going to be. I don't even know if it's coming for me, but you know, time will tell. I have no idea. But honestly, my immune system is pretty strong. Knock on wood. Uh, so we'll see if this kicks my ass or not. But so far, no symptoms. I just have to take it day by day. Actually, smaller. I gotta take it hour by hour. Right now, Lennon's napping, so I'm just making us our dinner, which is going to be muk seaweed soup. This looks really good.

Hello everybody. I don't even know what day we're on, but spoiler alert, the flu got me. The flu got me bad. This is like the most human I felt all week. So, I wanted to do my 2025 end of year reflection. I could not end this video without doing this. Every year, I like to fill out this prompt. There's 17 questions, I believe, and I started doing this back in 2020. Holy So, it's been 5 years of me filling this out. And it's very interesting to see my answers each year. But yeah, I thought I would share my answers for a few of them. So, when have you felt proud of yourself in 2025?

What were you doing? I felt the most proud when I was doing anything that I was avoiding. This could look like anything from working on a treatment, uh, doing like logistics for my son, opening and shredding mail, meal prepping, just stuff like that where my future self would be so stoked that I did. I also felt really proud when I would stay sober on a night out. went to like a Filipino food fest with my friends and I was completely sober for that whole night and I had a blast and the fact that I could remember everything in like HD memory was insane. I think this is something that's easily replicated for 2026. So going to bring that to the new year. If you had to teach one thing you learned this year, what would that be? It would be that I

am never as behind as I think I am. I think I suffer from this curse where when I wake up, I automatically feel like I'm behind. I think it's called like productivity debt. Like I don't feel good about myself until I can cross a couple of things off my to-do list. I feel like this behavior was always reinforced because it is a great motivator. Like I you know I get the things that I want to get done. But the thing is I want to change this because it's it doesn't really help my mood. Like imagine just waking up feeling stressed. I mean I'm sure a lot of you guys can relate. What's interesting is like I wake up feeling behind and then once I complete the tasks, I'll realize, oh like I'm right on schedule. So

now that I'm aware that I have this not disorder, but like this disordered way of thinking, I want to just cut out the anxiety and just trust myself that I'm going to get stuff done. What have you gotten a lot better at in 2025? I think just dusting myself off and trying again. I feel like 2025 was not an easy year. Like it wasn't a terrible year. It was actually a great year, but I did fall down quite a number of times. But the important thing was I just tried it again after every like discouraging event that happened. I, you know, I would complain and vent, but after a while, I'll be like, "Okay, well, there's nothing else to do here but to try again." Before I leave, I'm going to leave the end ofear reflection

questions uh in the description box. So, if you guys want to fill one out and answer in the comments, that would be so stinking cool. Um I would love to read and respond. All right, I'll talk to you guys in the next one. Bye. Happy New Year.