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Good morning, you guys. Starting the vlog off from my bed. It's 11:00 and I'm finally getting up. I did go to bed a little late last night, but it's Saturday, February 14th. Clearly don't really have plans today. The only plan I have for this weekend, I really wanted to sit outside this weekend so that I can rest. The rules that I have, I was journaling yesterday. I always sleep with like so many items next to my head. I have my journal, my pen, my hair tie, my lip balm, my stuffed animals, glasses, everything. But two rules for the weekend. Number one, don't worry about productivity and efficiency because that's something that I always
stress about during the weekday. So this weekend, none of that. I don't care if it's not productive. I don't care if it's not efficient. Two, allow myself to feel bored. During the weekday, I'm always so busy trying to check off the things on my to-do list. And when I'm not working, I'm wasting away time just doom scrolling. I never allow myself to feel bored. I never go outside of like my usual activity to fulfill my boredom. And this weekend, I want to feel bored. I'm okay with feeling bored. Like, I want to turn on a movie cuz I'm bored. I want to play dress up in my closet because I'm bored. I want to go on a walk because I'm bored instead of spending that time on my phone. It was growing. So, that's how my weekend's
going to be. I think I'm going to start off the day by taking a shower because feel kind of gross right now. And I've been making a priority recently to properly get ready in the morning, even if I don't have anything. And it instantly boosts my mood. So, we're going to do that. The weather's pretty nice. I switch up my body cream depending on the mood. These two have been on my rotation recently. Salt and stone, bergamont. This is more of everyday. And then this one is super sweet. But today I'm feeling the sweet one. This is Laura Mercier Amber Vanilla Serum Body Cream.
Oh my god, smells insanely sweet. One thing that I learned about myself recently, I love a clean, fresh wash hair cuz usually I need my hair to be styled like heat styled. So, I try to not wash my hair every single day because that means I have to heat style it every single day and that's so damaging. I need to figure out how to do a heatless curl on my hair so I'm not curling it every day. I still don't curl it every day. I'm trying to keep my hair as healthy as possible. Often, I'll heat style my hair as probably every other day, but always using a heat protectant. And even with my Dyson 2, I try to put it on the lower two heat settings.
Hello, Lie. I'm dogsitting for the weekend or for a week. He'll be making appearances here and there. He's like, "Do I want to come into this messy room or no?" Are you scared to come in here? I'm scared for you to come in here. I'm starving, but I'm drinking my morning juice. And I'm going to take this dog on a walk, like a 30 minute walk to get his energy out. Let him smell some grass. I like to think that it's his social media time, you know, his entertainment. And then I'm gonna come back and then I'm gonna grab myself some coffee and food to eat. Maybe it's because he's not my own dog. He's not very obedient to me. So, it's really hard for me to do things
with him cuz I want to take him to things. I ideally I want to take him to cafes and go shopping together. There's so many things in LA that you can do with a dog, but he's just not the easiest to deal with. Speaking of Valentine's Day though, feels weird because I think this is like my first time in adulthood where I don't have a love interest on Valentine's Day and where I don't have any plans on Valentine's Day. And maybe that's an issue. Like, I think I really needed this to be alone and to be free. It's just it feels weird. That's all I'm trying to say. I'm not sad or lonely. It just feels different. And thankfully, I think I'm over the age of logging onto social media on holidays and feeling sad for myself. I don't have what other
people have. Like, I don't really do that comparison thing anymore. Thank God. But it definitely took years of resenting people that I don't even know and comparing myself and feeling miserable. When I see people happily in love today on Instagram, I'm just like, "Wow, good for you." The reason why I can't bring this dog everywhere is because he doesn't listen to me. I don't think he listens to anyone. and he goes so crazy around other people. He won't bite or attack or anything violent like that, but he just loses his mind. Like, he gets way too excited. He doesn't know how to contain his excitement around people and it makes it really hard for me. And he also is a little fatty. He
loves food and whenever he sees other people eating, he goes crazy and he will try to steal their food. And there has been times where I'm dogsitting and we went to a park. I think it was in a vlog. We're just going to chill, have a cute little picnic, and then this dog runs off and he steals someone's sandwich. And he eats the entire thing in like two seconds. So after that, I was like, "Okay, maybe no park, no picnic for us." Okay, since it's Valentine's, we'll do a pink blush. It's about the little festivity. Yeah, I genuinely haven't used this color in like 2 years. Okay, rubbing against all of my clothes. I have a couch on here that's kind of like my everything couch.
I throw everything on there and he's rubbing himself all over it. I'm going to have to get rid of all his hair on them. Okay, makeup is done. Try to go for like a very pink makeup. Very subtle but very happy with it. I'm going to quickly do my hair. Just going to add like C curls here and there and we're good. But we got to wipe your feet. You got to wipe your feet. Come here. Huge respect for people who have white couches. Good boy. Turn around. Good boy. Okay. Drink your water. Okay. I played with Lie at home for a little bit, too. He's so tired.
He still want to play, but I'm going to quickly go out get some coffee and food. I'm starving, but I wanted to show you guys my outfit. This Mad Happy sweater that they just gifted me. The fit is so good. I love a fulllength cardigan with this like waist detail to cinch at the waist. My Vivian Westwood cardigan is like this and that's one of my favorites in my closet ever. These shorts that I thrifted. They're old American Eagle. It's like an awkward moment because there's no belt hoop in the back. So, this bell is just like floating in the back. Belt is glowy. And then my white socks that I always wear are donut vinyl. And then these shoes you guys also ask about all the time. They're
from Lucin like two years ago. They were like 30 bucks. I don't think they do shoes anymore, but if they do, their shoe selection is really good cuz they're all like made in Korea. And then since it's Valentine's Day, pulled out my pink bag. Currently sitting in my garage trying to think what I want to do. What I have to do, I have to charge my car. Not immediately, but if I do go out right now, I need to charge my car before I come back home. I know what I want for coffee and dessert. I just want a really good vanilla latte. And then I want this strawberry dessert that they have at Mad Happy Cafe. But I need to think of what I want for food cuz I need to eat before I drink my coffee and eat my dessert.
Why is this so hard? There's this breakfast burrito place that I might try. Is this near though? Oh, wait. There's two locations. West Hollywood. Okay, I'm going there. I'm sorry that was so over stimulating. I need to go back to my car. So, I happened to walk in there on their opening day and there were a lot of people. I could tell there were family and friends coming to support. It's not a big space to start with. So, I was just feeling very overstimulated in there and I did want to chill and eat there, but it was packed and my parking spot was only for 20 minutes. And I recently got a parking ticket, so I
don't want to risk anything. So, I came back to my car. I do want to drive to a charger and eat this while I let my car charge, but there are tater tots in here, and I don't want them to get soggy. This a honey chipotle ioli sauce. We have pickled onions. And then this is their BB burrito. I got their London, no Persian fog latte, just iced oat latte with Earl Grey infused into it. I did initially want a vanilla latte, but I was in line and the people in front of me were the owner's friends, and the owner was saying that they should try the Persian fog cuz it's his favorite. So, I was like, "Okay, if it's his favorite, I need to try." It's pretty big.
M I can't believe this is my first meal. I was so hungry waiting in there. I'm going to try to break this down to you. The tortilla is really soft but crispy on one end. It's like a good balance. There are eggs. Pretty fluffy. Melting cheese inside. Tater tots, bacon, and chives. And the tater tots crispy right now. Isn't that beautiful? I love when my breakfast burrito has like a good crunch to it. So, when I saw that this burrito had tater tots, I knew I would like it. We're now going to get some dessert and then we're gonna head back home cuz I am tired. That was enough. Gonna head to Madappy, but I already know the parking is going to be so hard there. If you couldn't tell
already, I don't like going to busy places. I hate waiting in line for things. I really want to go shopping. I just passed by the Beverly Center. I really love going to that mall cuz it's pretty empty for how big it is. Even during the weekends, I don't want to spend money. And knowing me, if I go there, I know I'm gonna spend money. So, we're just going to spend money on food today, and that's allowed. Nothing else. Strawberry secured. Guess how much this was? $17. Insane. Okay, so I didn't try it yet cuz I wanted to do a taste test with you guys.
It was so cute. I had to line up for this at Happy. I've never seen Matt Happy have lines, but I lined up like 10 minutes and there was a really sweet girl in front of me. So, we became friends and then I walked in to pick up my strawberries and I ran into a model friend of mine. We took pictures together for the matcha brand that's popping up. It's a collaboration with this matcha brand and their team wanted to take pictures of us and we took a cute picture. They told me to mix this well. There's like a layer of pusk cheesecake underneath and then chunks of strawberries, matcha, and then like a sweet cream on top. So, trying to get a little bit of everything. That's the cheesecake chunk.
Oh my god. So freaking good. M. Strawberry is really good, too. I told you guys I hate waiting in lines, but that line was worth it. These strawberries are huge. I like how big the strawberry is. M I've been craving really good dessert. This is hitting. So happy. purposely came out to a different neighborhood to walk Loki because it's cleaner and nicer here. But it's also nice to just people watch and the houses are so nice here that you can look through the window and see how people live. It's very inspiring. Honestly, all the nice cars and houses are here and you know that's more like the superficial things, but everyone who's settled down here with families. They
live in this neighborhood and a lot of people are like young families too. So, just fun to watch them walk their dogs and play with their kids in the streets. You can see the Hollywood sign, all the palm trees. One lesson learned. It's impossible to be bored when you have a dog cuz there's constantly stuff to do like walking the dog, cleaning after them, wiping their feet, playing with them, making sure they're not chewing up shoes. So, yeah, I've been pretty busy. It's already 7:00 p.m. Last activity of the day. I'm going to bake these cookies that I got from Trader Joe's. I got them last year.
Never baked it cuz I forgot I bought it. I bought it for Valentine's and then we had way too many snacks that I forgot I had it so never baked it. But I kept it in the freezer. So hopefully it's fine. I'm going to bake it. If it doesn't smell or taste okay, then I don't have to eat it. But since I have them, why not bake them right now, right? So cute. Looks fine, but it might taste rotten. So, I wish they were more toasty, but tastes fine to me. It told me to bake it for 12 to 14 minutes. I took it out around 13 minutes, so it's on the softer side, but I don't mind it. Morning,
everyone. I took Loki on a walk and I'm actually going on a little hike, nature walk with my friend and she's on her way. She's going to drive to my house and then I'm going to drive us to the trail. I think I'm going to take her to Ren Canyon. It's my favorite. So, I wanted to clean my car a little bit since I have a guest and Li's been in the passenger seat making it really dirty. So, I've been wanting to get a car mount for my phone. I finally got it. I need to eat something before my workout. So, I'm going to make myself some toast that I've been eating almost every morning. This is cranberry walnut sourdough bread that I got at the farmers market. And then we're going to spread some cottage cheese. Cottage
cheese is such a good source of protein. Half cup of cottage cheese is 12 g of protein. So, I do a generous spread and then do some pushut on top. And it's really yummy if you do balsamic glaze on top, which I don't have right now, but I'm just going to do some honey drizzle. My next farmers market purchase has to be like fancy honey. This is just regular honey from Sprouts. Honey, a little bit of salt. That's the breakfast. Looks ridiculous, but everything does wipe off surprisingly. What does it say? No. immediately. Amazing day. Thank you. Cheers.
Influencers in the wild. I know. Oh, smells like He's like, "Bye." While he eats that, I'm going to eat my snack because got my coffee from half day. And then Sen actually brought me a little gift. So sweet. This is what it looks like. Apparently, it's like dried strawberry on top and like a hazelnut Nutella filling inside. I don't know if this is supposed to be like the Dubai chewy cookie. Oh, it is soft. Like strawberry chewy cookie. The strawberry scent is really strong. Oh my god, it's so soft, actually. M. Why do I like this better than the div tree cookie? I was going to wash up and just get into my comfortable cozy loungewear and just chill at home, maybe read. But if I'm going to take a shower and do like my everything shower
anyways, I was like, what if I went to a Korean spa? I actually thought about going tomorrow morning. I usually prefer going during the weekday when it's less busy because Sunday afternoon, I just know it's going to be so crowded. Crowd is one thing. I just don't want to be spotted there and spotted alone. But if the only thing preventing me going is the fear of being spotted, I'm just going to go this weekend. Like the only thing that I really wanted to do is just following my heart and doing whatever I wanted. So, we're just going to go. Social anxiety. What's that? So, I packed my bag. I have my change of clothes and a book that I want to read.
Bought this with my sister. So, I'm going to start that one. And then this is like my bag for the actual bath house part. I have a little bag. Travel size shampoo and conditioner. Like bunch of these towels. The hair gloss. Hair treatment. Face wash. Clay stick mask from Skin4. Another one. This one's good for face exfoliation. Look at this cute soap case that I have. Hello Kitty. Yeah, that's my bag. I have so much stuff. This is probably going to get wet. So, I'm going to put it into the Lululemon bag that I don't mind getting wet. I have this, which is like my normal toiletry bag that I carry when
I go to the gym. So, it has all my skin and hair care. My favorite lip balm right now, which is the road lip mask. It's so thick. And then I like wearing socks inside the sauna. So, I'm going to bring my grip socks. You guys are on the new phone mount that I just got. And this angle is amazing. I'm so used to balancing you guys all the way down here and the camera would fall off every time I took a turn. But hopefully this is more stable and you guys get a good view of me driving. But I'm driving to we spa right now. Actually so excited to go. I don't even know why I hesitated for so long. I think going to the Korean spa is one of my rituals, my wellness ritual that I love doing for myself. I like
going with friends, but going alone is definitely a new experience for me. It was something that I had to get used to because I used to go with my mom growing up with my sister as like a family. So every time I sat in the bath house, like the tub, every time I was washing myself down, I always had someone to talk to. But going alone, you realize like it's kind of boring. Like you have to sit there with your own thoughts. It was really weird the first few times I went, but I've grown to really enjoy that part of the sauna. Just being unplugged for like an hour. I'm really looking forward to it today. I also just feel so good after. So clean, so detoxed. I'm not doing anything crazy in this vlog. And
sometimes that worries me, like are people going to be entertained by this? But I just want you guys to take this vlog as a sign to go do things alone. If you have something that you want to do, you don't have to wait for someone to do it with you. You don't have to wait for the perfect timing. just go do it. Follow your heart because that's the whole point of life. If you're waiting around to do things, like you lost the plot there. I think being able to do things right when you want to do it is the greatest privilege in life. So, if you can go do it, cuz why not? If you're scared of people watching you, who cares? Don't look around. That's my biggest tip on doing things alone.
I am back home. Look how clean I look. I could honestly spend all day in there, but I had to come back home to this dog. He's crazy, but I did miss him, and I felt bad for leaving him alone. This isn't his toy, by the way. This is my massage ball, but he loves it so much. I might just have to GIVE IT TO HIM. OH MY GOD. Do you see? Is this normal? I don't want to throw this because the downstairs neighbor's going to yell at us. I started this book at the sauna and I'm really liking it. It's a very interesting book. It's from a POV
of a girl who's stuck in an underground jail cage, but there are like 40 women in there. They don't know how they got there and they're trying to get out. I don't know where this book is going, but it's interesting. And because it's such a short read, I might try to finish it today. And all these marks are by my sister. I picked up sushi on my way home. I wanted to get this creamy udon pasta they have, but apparently they're out. Apparently, they cancelled the order because of that, but I didn't get any notifications, which is really sad. So, I only have the crispy tuna, which was the other half of the order.
Oh, but this is decently This is pretty big. And then I'm not going to finish this, but I do think that I need to eat this when they're fresh. So, I'm going to eat one more. So, that's my dinner. Oh my god, this looks so good. Okay. No, it's not yours. No, no, no, no, no. I woke up to pouring rain today, which is not my favorite. But honestly, in LA, I think a rainy week kind of kickstarts a proper spring. Like once we have this week of rain, we can finally say like, "Okay, spring is here." So, we're trying to make it through. It's super gray, super gloomy. I hope you guys can hear the rain a little bit cuz it's really loud. But to lighten up the mood a little bit, I'm going to put on my new
record that I got. I'm really into using my record player. And I have a good amount of LPs to play, but I want to make it like a monthly thing to buy new ones to represent the month. And for February, I bought Harry's House by Harry Styles. Last month I bought the Swag album by Justin Bieber and I've been playing that a lot. This is perfect because to me this is more of like a uplifting album. Also, look how beautiful. Now you guys know the drill. I'm going to just get ready for the day even though I'm not really going anywhere just to feel better about myself. I've always been a side sleeper and I've been trying to fix that for the longest time.
Got a specific pillow with a contour pillow to keep my head in place. I don't move to my sides. Didn't work. I'm trying to mentally stay conscious. Telling myself to not sleep on my side. Obviously doesn't work either. But you know what's been working? I put in all of my piercings again for the first time in like 2 years. I'm surprised that they're not closed yet. Once I added my piercings back, it's really hard for me to sleep on my side. It's not even hard. It's like painful to sleep on my side. So, I've been forced to sleep on my back. So, if you also have piercings, but you haven't been wearing them
because it's hard to sleep on your side and you're a side sleeper trying to fix that bad habit, just put them back in. Sounds really self-explanatory and simple, but I don't know why I've never thought of that. One thing I need to remind myself to get is a proper matcha bowl and a whisk. I just made some more matcha latte as my choice of beverage today. Honestly, it tastes like milk cuz I think I added too much. The mug is a little too big. My morning routine's been great. I got a lot of my work done. I'm now going to make myself some breakfast. I'm going to make myself some tukok. I've been soaking these rice cakes here like the past hour. So cold and gloomy. It's
raining. I just want something soupy and warm. Plus, it's Lunar New Year this week and I've been seeing everyone's stories with their families and eating good food. And honestly, it's making me a little homesick. whenever holidays come around, like I don't care about Valentine's Day, that I can deal with, but I think what hits me harder is whenever like the family focused holidays roll around and I'm alone. That's when it kind of hits me and I get a little lonely and homesick. Sending a warm hug to all of you who left your hometown, who left your family to start something for your own and to build something of your own. If no one's told you recently how proud they are of you, here I am. I'm so proud of you. You're
doing great. I know how hard it is and I know how lonely it can be and you're doing it. Whether you think you're doing a great job or not, you're doing it still and that's what matters. I think what helps me a lot is starting my own little traditions by myself. And you don't need to have special traditions every holiday, but something that you do monthly, something you do weekly, something that you just look forward to doing that brings you comfort and that makes you feel at home wherever you are, I think is so important. And I hope this vlog was a good representation of that, of me doing that for myself. I don't want to get too deep into this, but I was reflecting and I was looking back on
pictures from, well, specifically Valentine's Day. And I was curious what I've been doing every Valentine's Day for like the past 6 years. And then I realized exactly 6 years ago around this time, I came to LA for the very first time. Never set foot in LA by myself. Maybe when I was like a baby. The only image of LA I had was what I saw through people's vlogs and movies. I was just so fearless. I think the fearless that came with being so young and not knowing anything. I came here all by myself. Got an Airbnb that I could barely pay for with the internship that paid me like the bare minimum honestly. But I still wanted to be out here in the real world.
I craved just be in a big city and it was really hard. Like I remember the very first week I cried myself to sleep because I was regretting my choice. I was like I could have been at home. I could have been with all my friends but I decided to graduate early just to experience something. And now I'm like I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know any of these people. I wish I stayed in my comfort zone. Surprisingly, humans are really good at adapting to change. And somehow I adapted really quickly and I blinked and 6 years passed and here I am. It's just a weird feeling. I feel so like I don't know how I did it, but I somehow did. And looking back on how scared and like almost hopeless I was
picturing myself living in LA 6 years ago to actually living here in my own apartment. It just feels surreal. All I'm trying to say is that I'm very grateful and I'm hoping to pass on this good vibes to all of you. Hope you're having a great week. I will see you in my next video. Bye guys.
